where the lonely ones roam.

guys, i need some inspiration! i’ve been doing so well, but then something happened and i just keep eating. help me.

why do i feel so sick to my stomach?

i just can’t shake it. i want to throw up!

is it because the scale showed more than i expected? it’s not bad at all, especially because i spent the weekend eating and not moving an inch.

please, go away, i can’t deal with you right now. i have things to do.

i have to get up somehow. just move on.

i weighed myself 9 times the last three days, because i couldn’t believe it. it showed my lowest again. now i just want to stop eating completely. i was on my period and it showed my LOWEST. what the hell is going on?! i’m always fat as fuck.

two three days ago i stepped on the scale and i was at my lowest in 3 years i think.

i barely eat since then.

damn, this was such a successful day. i only ate like two toasts and a piece of punch cake. i woke up around 8.30am and it’s almost midnight now.

must. not. ruin. it.

i’m blown up as fuck, though. damn you, mother nature.
but at least the scale shows what i want it to show. i’m not going back to 145 lbs. NEVER.

Anonymous asked: are you anorexic/bullimic or losing weight the healthy way?

i’m not diagnosed with anything. and i don’t consider myself anorexic or bulimic. i’ve never made myself throw up and i only starve for short periods of time because i know i have to keep eating. i have a job and it’s the only thing i really like about my life right now. you need fuel to keep going. i don’t want to lose my job.
i have really depressed moments (too many to be honest), but there are good days and because of those i don’t give up.
and i have to mention that i exercise regularly.